fading away of you from my mind

Lee Kiseop

2011-06-25T23:01:00.000-07:00

Kiseop oppa!!!!!

ahhh~

he looks freaking hot both here :D OHMYGOD!!!!

ahhhhhhhh~~

hehehehe ^_^

i'm like spazzing bout him since i watch the ukiss kiss chef? chef kiss? ahh whatever xD

cuteness! (:

he even have the same birthday as Nisa .

17 january. Random and coincidental right?

but omg he just looks freaking good here :D

KISEOP!KISEOP!KISEOP.

okayokay i'm outta here (:

byebyebye!

Unexpected

2011-06-25T05:30:00.000-07:00

Went Vivo with mom to get myself a new school bag.

So walked around and i finally drank my starbucks :D

okayokay,

then mom said she wanted to go in TANGS.

then i was like why not maybe they sell bags there.

Then,

i know someone works there , i know minho worked there,

so i thought maybe i'll see him there but

Guess what,

It was HIM!

_________ aka Kyu,

he was like standing there folding clothes .

He works there goodness gracious.

Like serious, my body just went numb. Out of all places i had to see him there.

Then GDI we eye-contacted. SHIT!.

i quickly looked away and acted normally,

LOL as though he know me like that. LOL.

but still, my heart was pounding and i know i shouldnt feel this way.

But i did and it kept pounding hard.

then mom went nearer to him because the bag was behind him,

endedup he stood infront of me .

and i was like acting normal .

GOSH!

i've seen you finally....

So close......

i dont know when i ever see you again,

but i had to say since i bought that bag there,

now my school bag reminds me of you :/

is that a good thing?

.....

You're so far like a distant star,

2011-06-24T00:25:00.000-07:00

(I've Given Up. )

No longer holding on to something that isnt mine to keep from the start.

maybe.....

I Give My All,

2011-06-23T23:56:00.000-07:00

Currently addicted to this .

Mariah Carey -My All

Its an old song from the 1990's . Probably around 1998 .

But hey, songs dont expired right?

hehehe ^__^

But this song is really very nice!

Should check it out! ((:

hehehe ^__^

okay i'm off (:

Went out with Dearie Yesterday (:

2011-06-18T01:04:00.000-07:00

well yeah, more pics at FB xD kekekekeke~

hmm, had a lot of fun with her today seriously.

i cant even stop laughing xD

We window shopped alot !

Took neoprints with her and thats the first NEOPRINT OF US <3

hehehehe ^_^

hmm, Insyirah saw myungsoo look-alike when we were having

our frappes at mccafe xD

then i was too slow and i missed it by only afew secs.

then on the way home we saw someone who looks like kyung ,

HAHAHA, then insyirah started to smile becos duh,

someone looks like your freaking biased!

hehehehe ^____^

so going out with her was fun!

P.S

me and insyirah decided to not wear wedges again unless for special ocassion xD

we were like damn tired and our legs were hurting xD

omgggggg -.-" really .

we gonna wear our normal flats or sneakers next time!

hehehehe .

A LESSON LEARN FOR BOTH OF US :P

hmmm, and btw i'm hooked with Block B <3 <3 <3

Pyong* Pyong*

One In A Million,

2011-06-04T22:31:00.001-07:00

OHMYGOSH,

I dont even know how many times i repeat this song.

I can seriously relate to this song like manymany.

Its not that one in a million song though,

its Neyo's One In A Million :D

Ahhh~

I think i just raped this song in my IPOD xD

HAHAHAHAHAA!

7 June ! CANT WAIT FOR IT! HEHEHE ^_^

GOING TOWN WITH MY LOVELIES~

WOOHOO! :D

GotToGot :P

byebye!

MBLAQ ❤

2011-06-03T03:25:00.000-07:00

I GOT TO SEE THEM !! OHMYGOD!!

*SCREAMS IN HAPPINESS* :D

When with Insyirah then along the way Darina and Shalini came as well.

Stood at the freaking barrigate for like one and a half hour ,

reached airport at 11 plus,

went to terminal 3 at 1 something ,

then went its near 230 we all stood up standing.

GOSH, they only came out at 0330 -.-"

but i continued waiting anyway xD

THEN FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FIRST PERSON WAS MIR!!!! ❤❤

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

SO FREAKING CUTE ! WITH HIS GEEK GLASSES!

LIKE EH-EH HE WAS JUST DAMN NEAR? LIKE AFEW CM AWAY?

THEN CAME CHEUNDONG, THEN SEUNGHO, GO AND THEN JOON!!!

AHH~

EVERYONE HAD BLACK HAIR --> MBLAQ HAHA. BLACK.

GOSH, JOON WAS LOOKED TIRED >.< BUT I MANAGED TO WAVE AT MIR,

AND GUESS WHAT? HE WAVED BACK!

*JUMPS FOR JOY!* kk lol.

Waited for long hours but 5-10 secs only we saw them . LOL.

OMG CAN I JUST REPEAT THE MOMENT? SERIOUSLY?!

kaykay, and then they are off~❤

TOOK THE TRAIN WITH SHALINI AND DARINA SINCE INSYIRAH WENT BUGIS.

then shalini went off first then left me and darina then,

went we reaching bukit batok, darina said if only BTFG was there~

then i was looking around, we were at bukit batok ,

then i saw this guy , i thought just some random omg situation,

then i looked again, it was BTFG!

i was just O_O

then told darina then she started smiling LOL.

kay weird story to even write it out all xD

so stopping here :D

hehehe.

best part, i got to wash my eyes today becos of MBLAQ ❤

Why do i still have this weird feeling...

2011-05-14T02:18:00.000-07:00

It really sucks when you really love someone, and they no longer feel the same about you.

Exactly.

that's exactly what i'm feeling right now,

i dont really use the word LOVE, its more to LIKE..?

but its still the same right?

i dont really know how to explain what the REAL feeling is.

because i dont even know.

Sighs,

Someone help me here, i dont know what to do,

i dont even think anyone is even reading this.

I cant seem to avoid this situation,

No Matter How Hard I Try , It Still Comes Back To Me.

because you're just there,

i'm going to see you till i graduate..

its bad enough we dont even talk to each other,

and then you kept giving me that look as though i done something wrong.

sighs..

you'll never know what i am thinking when i see you,

and yet , everyday i still think about it.

I dont want this anymore,

please...?

Just for once...

talk to me like you do to everyone else?

please...?

i know with them , my smile last the longest.

2011-05-12T01:25:00.000-07:00

How can i not love them ..?

they are my little dearies <3

They are people whom i trust and love alot.

They understand me best when no one else does.

They are always there when i am down .

They are the bestest friends whom you wont regret meeting.

They are the ones who makes me happy and laugh .

They never let me down and thats why i LOVE them so much!

Mani Mani Saranghaeyo <3

ehehehe.

you all know i do :D

If I can’t get you no matter how hard I try then you aren’t the one

2011-05-08T04:30:00.001-07:00

You wont understand,
You will never know....
I'm scared and i hate this sudden feeling.
Yes i do admit ever since the day of the incident, i've been thinking
whether you still like me ..?
Because a part me still like you . I dont know why but you have been
in my mind ever since . Yes i know i tried to move on during sec 2.
And apparently i did. I fell in love . But not with you. I figure out
that during that time , we both might as well just move on ,
i fell in love hard for someone but that someone doesnt even notice
me . Dont even know i even existed but i fell for him and got my
heartbroken in the process.. It hurts alot but i endured it .
For the whole sec 2 year, in my mind was him not you because like i
said , i moved on. Till now he is still in mind too... Someone who
doesnt even know me and i fell in love with. I am pathetic right..? :
( an idiot who thinks that that person will like her back, yeah thats
me...
Then that guy left... He left me without goodbye .. He left without
knowing my feelings for him.. He left without me having the chance to
talk to him.. He just LEFT. he graduated. No longer in my school.. I
miss him a hell lot ! Really i do.
He LEFT, I WAITED..
oh dear, why did i tried moving on..? It hurts more. I'm already
hurt that we broke off and you didnt even know that real reason behind
it till now.. Then i was hurt even more when i fell in love with him :
( when i fall for him, i watched him fall in love with someone else
twice. So basically, i'm in love with two guys..? People say when you
cant decide between two, always choose the 2nd one because if you love
the first one, you wouldnt be falling for the 2nd one. When i was in
love with him, i forgotten all about you, but now that he is gone, all
i could think of is you, you're going to think how selfish and
unreasonable i am . Sighs. Someone told me that i'm too late , you
waited for 2 years , but to think again if i am too late , why didnt
the past 2 years you talk to me? Everytime you see me , its like you
want to avoid me . You never once smile at me again, you always will
just look for a second an then turn away like as though i'm someone
you hate.. Remember the times we had when we were still together?
I miss it you know..? Remember the gift you gave me ? Is
It is still with me if you ever wonder where it is.. And Remember
during sec1 camp? We held hands . You helped me climb the slope. We
were in the same group. Then we played the rubber band thingy and you
tried to hit me but missed . Memories. Sec 1 camp was a month after
our breakup. But we were still okay then. Then as time passes , we
just started drifting apart. I miss talking to you. I miss your
goodnights and goodmornings . I miss hearing you say what a great gf i
am to you. I miss texting with you till late nights. Dont you..? :
( sighs. Am i too late ?
You wouldnt take me back right?
You wouldnt want me back right?
You dont have any feelings for me anymore..?
You wouldnt even want to see me anymore right ?
I dont want you to hate me really, i just miss talking to you.
I cant stand it any longer not talking to you while others can,
Do you know it leaves a ache in my heart when others can just talk to
you and have a great time laughing with you...?
Do you know i just had to keep smiling face when others told me that
they had fun?
I want to talk and laugh with you and be happy, i cant take it any
longer looking at others being so close to you and i'm just there
looking like some retard...
Do you know i long to talk to you...
I dont even think you give a damn :(
Sighs...
Please for once ..?
Talk to me ..?
:(((
Aish, i give up ! Seriously i do !
I cant do this to myself anymore.
If you want me back and still love me , you would have done all this
earlier.. If you really had given up 2 years of waiting then i think i
should to.
I'm strong, and i cant let this matter distract me . I cant keep
hoping for something that aint going to happen. I cant keep waiting
for you since you already gven up.
Its too late, i'm too late. I learnt my lesson. I give up , i'm just
going to give you up. I'm just going to ignore all this as though it
never happen.
As though the sudden feeling waa just passing by. I'm going to forget
you and just erase you away, because i cant keep doing this thing...
Really i cant..
Do you know how much it hurts to keep on wishing that one day you
would talk to me when i can clearly see you wouldnt.
I'm just tired of all this. If you really care, you would show it and
i am afraid you do not. I was just depending to much on hope.
I hate the word hope, because at the end of day, it will all come
crashing down..
And so i say, goodbye to you,
You'll no longer be in my mind or in my heart..
I had enough and i want it to stop,
I will move on...
So once again goodbye to you even if i dont want it to be the last
goodbye..
But i had to , i have to move on to keep myself happy and i know you
do too (:

we were just not meant to be and i have finally accepted that :D

it hurts...

2011-04-14T00:39:00.001-07:00

It hurts . you know?

the feeling you get when you like someone but when they see you

its like they try to avoid you and ignore you.

It hurts more knowing that maybe ,

you wont return my feelings again...

Why cant we just talk ?

i know its awkward but i dont want to be the first one

starting the freaking conversation...

Like this quote, "i want to talk to you but i'm scared i sound desperate and annoy you"

sighs... this whole thing has been in my head for a year

yet, i havent been telling anyone.. because i know people will just laugh at me:/

if i said i want you back, what will you say?

if i said i love you again , willl you accept it?

if i said, lets start over, will you agree?

all i'm hoping for is to be with you and be happy,

this past few days , months deep inside i kept feeling,

the feeling of pain and insecure...

i'm scared of being rejected...

but please...?

it hurts too much because it is still in my mind ..

and i hate the feeling...

seriously...

ps. so long never blog then yasmin suddenly sms me about my blog so i might as well blog...

Kyuhyun...

2011-02-16T07:14:00.000-08:00

OHMYGOODNESSGRACIOUSCHOKYUHYUN!!!!!!!!!!!

You make me speechless and just in awe xD

like EH-EH! how much cuter and hotter can you be? (:

YOU make me FALL in LOVE with YOU all OVER AGAIN!

and SJM song was DAEBAK!

SERIOUSLY IT WAS!

*perfection*

it was perfection alright the teaser and the song xD

MMMMMMM-ing ((:

hahaha! okay la gtg ,

continue chatting with insyirah and studying my freaking SOCIAL STUDIES for tomorrow :/

kill me now.....

aigooo..

byebye...

...

Happy Bithday CHO KYUHYUN.

2011-02-02T21:47:00.001-08:00

Gosh! This HOT person here (:

HOTNESS Cho Kyuhyun !

finally it is his birthday today and whoa, is he 8 years older but who the hell cares?

He is my freaking BIASED since i was 10 xD hahaha. and it never changes (:

Saranghaeyo Cho Kyuhyun <3

Gosh la eh, too CUTE!

3 Febuary , Always going to remember this date (:

and i know there is an inside story of another person during this date in 2010

(i know you know Darina.)

HAHAHAHA! okayokay,

me off and going to go Aunt's place today (: hahaha for Dinner xD hahaha!

kkk byebye!

Life is getting Tiring...

2011-01-20T06:06:00.000-08:00

Aigoo,

Life is getting tiring, i mean my Life.

Almost everyday , I've been going back home late because of CCA,

Not only that,, i have tuition classes on the same day as my CCA. Like what a timing -.-

Plus, by week 6 , going start doing the mural with my friends xD GOSH!

"kill me now"

busy busy busy, suddenly i feel so motivated , to get at least less than 17 for Os.

i know maybe somewhere in my HEART , i can do IT! but can i?

*prays*

-sighs-

Okayokay , didnt managed to get ss3 tickets ..... :'(

.....

Someone left this world ... on the 17 Jan , cried till eyes were puffy ,

Everyone was devastated and just breakdown..... it was my Grandfather... My dearest Grandfather...

i know, that HE will e Happy up there in Heaven (: watching us here fromabove (:

will miss him but i know i still LOVE him (:

FOREVER !

English Drama.

2011-01-15T06:20:00.000-08:00

yeah , that's my life xD

English Drama Student. That's Me.

What do you expect? Something different? hehs.

These few days has been a tiring week for me. Almost every single day i will be home late.

Can someone take over my life for me?

Everyday feels like i've been torture .... Everyday i go home , i will be dead tired to do anything.

In school i feel like sleeping not because i sleep late but just T.I.R.E.D

that's my life now......

Wanna Exchange Life For A Day?

.....sighs....

i'm off, byebye

Before The Dawn

2011-01-08T17:58:00.001-08:00

allah~~ hehehehehe^^

infinite comeback's was good actually :DDD i am freaking addicted to the song xD before the dawn~before the dawn~ hehehe. kaykay.. and freakingly sungyeol looked good in this comeback ! well actually woohyun and myungsoo too! like omg situation people sia~! HAHAHA! kk...

hope those hair stayed like that >.<>.<>

later gonna do that welfare thingy , aish... but if receive points for doing so why not :P hehehehe..

sunday is today and time i can assure it is gonna be fast >.<

kay la. i'm off~

byebye

turn my back to door,

2010-12-30T21:58:00.000-08:00

I know I wouldn't forget you, you gave me so much to remember. But I know I'll move on and be fine.
clock ticking and time flying.... less than a week , a few more days till my new school year is starting..... am i even ready? :/ need to make a revolution now.... i want get out of this school fast and go to college... there is nothing in this current school of mine except studying and my best friends.... but sometimes, i imagine, will we even manage to complete this , another 2 years without arguments and dissagreements? :x i dont know but i cant say , i wont promise i wont happened but i hope and wish it doesnt.....

i dont even want to separate from them.... one understands me so much and the other is always there for me ,and other makes me laugh in my bad moods :DDDD i love them! but can i be sure that we wont separate?

....

the questions always linger in my mind....

Can't erase or numb the pain

2010-12-28T21:47:00.000-08:00

"I know that it doesn't make sense but I love you."

school starting like in less than a week ..... time flies so much when you are hving so much fun during the holidays. like i dont even want go to school yet seriously... the mood yet to go off... and new year is coming , so fast it is already coming to 2011 , feels like i just went to secondary school yesterday :( next thing i know i will be taking my o-levels. my tuition starting on the 15 jan .... wooo.... gonna have a pretty alot of studying ! need to make myself a plan but have a feeling i wont follow it >.<

kaykay,

addicted to bust your windows and ghost of you alot! hehehe (: love the songs alot actually been listening to more of english songs now then listening to kpop songs... i dont know... maybe for a change? for the past 3-4 years been listening too much kpop already uh. hahahaha

time for a change O.o hehs

kaykay,

gtg~ byebye!

Hello Xperia X8 .. Byebye E63

2010-12-27T03:40:00.000-08:00

one of my favourite among the rest of the christmas presents :D hehehehe...
i gotten a new phone (:
cute eh? hehehehe XD

just talking about getting a new phone and bammmed! there you go in christmas monrning i open the box and tada! here comes my new brand new freaking phone! first time using sony though but hey love it! muahahahaha!
kaykay.,..

i'm off!
byebye

dear,

2010-12-19T23:11:00.000-08:00

darina, why dont we celebrate christmas together? but not on the day itself. maybe on the 26 or 27 ? we go the flyer thingy ? dont be sad because you think you are a loner on christmas. :( i hate seeing you like this all moody and silent >.<>cheer up!

i hate to see this silent moment on facebook chat >.<"

anyeong nae sarang

2010-12-19T05:46:00.000-08:00

one word! his hair~~

hahahaha.

dont know what to post anymore becos mostly on tumblr~

hehehehe

do follow me :DDDDDDDD

PLEASE (: HEHEHE

dont worry but youre worrying me

2010-12-05T07:24:00.001-08:00

We are still together and we are not going to separate because i met you first :D

Beast Almightly...

2010-12-04T04:36:00.000-08:00

sorry yanie, blog post almost like yours. hehehe >.<

AND YEAP I SAW THEM TODAY WITH YANIE AND ZALIHA ! AND BOY WERE THEY NEAR TO US! AND I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY NEAR AND I FOUND OUT THEY ARE REALLY NICE AND FRIENDLY PEOPLE! THEY ACCEPT GIFTS AND SUCH.
Cant believe when he first came out and he suddenly grabbed my freaking attention and i stared at him almost throughout. Dont know but he just seems cute in a way .. like seriously... see him in a person and you'll know and he is really friendly with the wave and the smile.. woooo~.. kaykay..
I SAW HIM BUT YANIE DIDNT , she missed it maybe she just looked and ignore... aiyoyo. hahaha! he was wearing the same shirt colour as me. and plus with the cute bag.. hahaha! he smiled too and thank god he smiled normally i see fancams he wont. hehehe^^ but still nice to see him in person (:
OHMYGOD! DONGWOON UH! WHY SO CUTE AT THE AIRPORT? plus with the shades and the cardigan.. like you should have turned a whole 360 degree turn but you stopped halfway... but you made my day happy ! and yanie took his pic instead of kikwang. hahaha! but seriously you are freaking tall! and just woo la eh, you are just too cute and handsome to me and it turns out your hair seriously suits you when i meet you in person. hehe!!:DDDD maybe seeing you again next year? probably~
kikwang. i remember the moment i saw him and i screamed at yanie. hahaha! and there she is staring at him and forgot to take picture. her eyes were looking at him but her camera was pointed the other side. haha. how great? he is really tiny in person. hahaha. and yanie sure loves his side profile with the shades. hahaha! but he kept looking down throughout except when he bounced back when he hit on dongwoon when they stopped becos the barrier fell.. whoa.... creepy... hahaha! kaykay.
Yoseob ah! freaking cute with the hoodie with fur! like he took the banner or playcard and cover his face except the eye and boom he eye contacted with dear yanie. boy , was she lucky! hahahaha! like he is really near us and he smiled though we all know they are really tired... right?
hyunseung ah, you blink and you will miss him . hahaha! seriously he walks fast! hahahabut he managed to do a little wave to fan , and yanie always laugh when you mention him. hahaha! yesyes...

hahaha... to know what happened in the morning go yanie's blog ! thankyu!!!!

hehehehee^^ kaykay~

byebye!

and so freaking HAPPY I GOT TO SEE BEAST! DONGWOON

Hello December ♥

2010-11-30T08:10:00.000-08:00

it's december, ♥ ♥ ♥

it's already almost 12 months since the first time i laid my eyes on you and fallen in love with you...

bored...

2010-11-30T03:34:00.000-08:00

this is getting boring....i am just bored so maybe i post something. hehehe... lol.. will repost this later . alright.. kkk.. will be back~ muahahaha

you know, that i want,to get get get your love,

2010-11-27T02:32:00.000-08:00

Dont really think about you now, maybe sometimes, but it seems like i might forget you ... but not a whole 100 percent you are gone from my mind.... you just lingering around but sometimes it just disappeared...
First thing is that i am missing KANG MINHYUK :'( havent seen him active on variety shows but i seen like a clip of him in his drama :x but for like less then a minute ??? like are u kidding me? and freak my lappy just deleted what i type for this post ! urghhhh.... oh yeah ONE WORD FOR TODAY ! HOT!!! RAIN WAS FREAKING HOT IN TODAY'S PERFORMANCE AT THE CLOSING CEREMONY :P HEHEHEHE.. like no joke man! kk.. hehehe. i bet darina died. heheheh.

kkk at 1130 going out maybe i want watch harry potter making :D duh~ hahaha. kkk.. since darina wont be online till midnight plusplus... i go kill time by watching suite life on deck D today's latest episode someone uploaded which supposed to air like this friday. but oh well.. hahahaha.... :D i want cody and bailey back together no joke!!! hehehe

byebyebye~

oh yeah, oh yeah...

2010-11-26T04:58:00.000-08:00

no longer lingering in my mind but you appeared at news feed when i was online...
we were going take a pic together but ended up darina ws too slow. hahahaha. so it ended up me mostly in the picture.. but on facebook there is pics of me and her. hehehehe^^ btw, chatting with darina now, about heights . like she said we both grew because her body had gotten longer. and that means she grew.and when she grow , i grow too. which is like seriously people. i grew? like right now? this timing..... >.<

kaykay, this is just creeping me out.

btw, kyuhyun is super hot in kry taiwan :D seriously look at fanpics and fancams. his hair and everything is just perfect! love him lots. (:

sis just pulled the earring out of my ear just now and god does it hurts cos it gotten swollen because supposely the earring doesnt suit me , it gives my itchness. then sis just pulled it out immediately . and laughed... seriously sis? kaykay.. but it did make me feel relieved! hehehehe..

kay i'm off..

byebye~

hehehe

2010-11-25T05:49:00.000-08:00

when i hear things like wishes do come true , i will reply , if wishes do come true, then why isnt he mine yet? T_T
Sis do take pics whenever i am not that ready and just snap or she wont say my hair is okay or what . hehehe. well that is sis. but i love all her photography of stuffs. it turns out nice ... especially the one in the engagement thingy..

kk... let's see, saw this news on the tv, and guess what , these teenage girls go and freaking crush a tiny little bunny/rabbit. like seriously people? are u freaking kidding me? like do you have a right mind to even do such thing? like , it is still breathing and alive and there you go sitting on it and still can have that awful smile on your freaking face?!!?! like it disgust me your faces.. it seriously does. you ought to be sent to jail for years . idc how long or forever. i want you to feel how it is like to be tortured while in a jail.. you people are just inhumans...

kaykay, enough of this people... hate them,.....

btw, net is finally okay. hehehe. i miss my twitter and my facebook and especially my blog :) hehehe^^ and now me and darina is like praying really really hard to be able to win those tickets. like people if you will , you get either cat1 or cat2 ! do you know how near is those cats? like freaking near...

hehehe. so wish us luck people~

gtg :D

byebye

Finally

2010-11-25T00:10:00.000-08:00

FINALLY IMMA BACK ON NET! TWITTER , FACEBOOK ,TUMBLR.... WHATEVER THERE IS.. KAYKAY..

LEKLEK, SINCE WHEN I USE IMMA? OOOO..... WEIRD JUST FEEL LIKE IT. KAYKAY.. FREAKING HAPPY I CAN USE BACK MY LAPPY AND WATCH SLOD AND CHAT WITH DARINA AND YANIE. BUT MOSTLY WITH DARINA! MUAHAHAHA!

KAY WILL DO A PROPER POST SOON :D

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows (:

2010-11-22T06:02:00.000-08:00

i kept thinking about you more instead because i cant see you anymore ....
OMG WAS HARRY POTTER GREAT AND FREAKING SURPRISING THE BEST HARRY POTTER OF THE WHOLE THING! I LOVE IT! AND LOVE IT LOTSLOTSLOTS!!

like it was just freakinggood the best one yet but part 2 havent yet out yet wait till next year june. yeah i know.. need wait for school june holidays. pfft!!! but i wanna watch it again pleaseeee... who wanna watch with me? sis watching with her friends again >.<

tsktsk....

like throughout the movie, it was cold but i got nothing to cover me . all of us , darina, me and yanie was like sitting like comfortably and coldly at the freaking back. yeah, we were last row of the last and at the freaking corner of the cinema, then the movie like started 15 mins after the freaking slow cfs. tsktsk.... like epic moments were evolved. Like i can freakingly remmeber and wont forget! is darina gasped. here is what happened,

i heard the person said draco then i was like isnt that malfoy . then i tapped non-stop on darina's shoulder then after that she look at the screen and gasped freaking loudly! like the cinema was silent but except her gasped! was EPIC! hahahaha! then there was one part we thought ron was the old lady :D

then malfoy part was like only less then 40 secs throughout the whole movie ?!?!?! i know part 2 should have quite a lot more parts of him because there is a battle among the evil and good ~ muahahahaha!

i seriously love this movie and seriously who want watch with me again? hehehehe^^ some parts were suspense and some parts were tearful , some parts was just shocking and make me and darina jumped abit. like how i screamed when voldemort suddenly appeared on the screen out of nowaday... -shivers- then got one scene was tearful and while watching i heard darina at the side sniffing becos she cried ... yeah it was very sad ... and pitiful... like seriously.... stupid bellatrix! rughhhhh!!!

kay la...... anything just go darina;s blog because even though she yet post but i think she will soon. hehehe.

byebye~

i'm the worst friend ever :(

2010-11-19T08:02:00.000-08:00

seriously T_Tseriously T_T

I wish that when I wake up you're there

2010-11-19T06:04:00.000-08:00

dreams can never be reality no matter how much i want them to be ...

yeap! and i tell you darina's dream is freakingly can be related to sweet dreams by beyonce . no joke like seriously. every part of the lyrics(: how cool is that? for a dream being related in everyway in a song? hehehe^^ meeting her soon dont know when but soon for the singapore flyer . yeapyeap.. hehehe^^ want know how we got it go twinn's blog :D

Meeting yanie monday (: i wanna watch my Harry Potter. omg i have to watch it. sis watched it already and darina is going watch it tomorrow. omg seriously i need to WATCH IT ! but maybe darina following.... hahaha! well the more people the more fun.. confirm more money going out from my pocket this monday :D

btw, ss3 tickets are eing sold as we speak but never mind because i know i will get to see them one day not by this supershow3 but by other events maybe..... hehehehe^^ duh~ probably with twinn.. major duhness.. hahahahaha!

and , no dramas this week .. B.O.R.I.N.G ! but yanie is online nowadays ever since her lappy is fixed (: and darina normally chat with me via comments nowadays. hehehehe^^

and i need a new dp for my facebook. maybe take pictures soon :D and tmr sleeping over at aunts house because the day after tmr is the engagement day for my cousin and his fiancee. hehehe^^ and tmr busy day for me. hehehe^^ preparing things or either i just sit there and play com instead. muahahahaha!

okay la i gtg.

byebye

i want to go out seriously ...

2010-11-18T00:47:00.000-08:00

Why are you not going? i was hoping you would ....... :'(

it's been a freaking long time since sis brought me out to town T_T and i want go out with her!!! because going out with her , eating is free :D :D hehehe^^ and we get to go places i dont even know existed! hehehs :D and i freaking realised than whenever i drank at starbucks, i will always be wearing long sleeves shirt. hehs. kaykay, hmm.. changed plans with yanie since mom still kinda sick , i cant meet her tomorrow so plan to meet her on monday and watch my harry potter. sis says it is freaking GOOD! hahaha. and it is almost a 3hour movie :D how great is that? to sit in the cinema for that long :D muahahahaha!.....

and i want to watch my slod but the episode not out yet and waiting next week for donghae and minhyuk's drama ,yeap. i want see my minhyuk (: lol . hehehe^^ kinda bored right now and i have to finish 2 books in 2 days or 3 days before sis returned it . okay i am quarter way through the first book. yeah, good luck to me.

and i want get that ring.. freakingly need get a ring the one ring i wanted at forever 21 (: and also getting another piercing soon. soon! but dont know when . hehs.

okay la. i gtg ~

byebye!

i am feeling kinda lonely now

2010-11-16T01:33:00.000-08:00

Seriously , You display pic, was just gorgeous. .. . . but i could only look at it to look at you now :(
Can i have the purple and gold one? mom say i can change my phone after my 18 months contract finish and apparently i have 6 months more. aigoo.... i want to change to blackberry :P hehehe^^ but i also want LG phones. i dont know but blackberry seems to be calling my name. muahaha!

Meeting Yanie soon , yeap! very happy havent talk long long chats for like how long ? very long! and i planning to meet Twinn soon too . but i dont know when. maybe next next week? or next week? idk.But hope it is soon.

Mom seems to be getting better and i havent been going elds. probably till no more elds this holidays. the lazyness in me is like overwhelming all over -.-"

Again , Late nights i sleep like at 2 plus in the morning. and also i still watching SLOD. hehe^^ darina knows that. Need wait end of this week i think for next episode .. urghhh!!!! anyone can recommend me any new dramas? I know there is Vampire Diaries but that also need wait end of the week and i know Twinn is obsess Damon.

okay then,

i'm off ~

byebye~

falling in love with kyuhyun.....

2010-11-14T06:09:00.000-08:00

I never think about you, but you're always on my mind.
SS3 nanjing kyuhyun was just too damn cute !! and his hair is freaking becoming like super girl right ? hehe^^

and sis told me and i saw on the tv that 2AM coming at IMM for fan-signing. hahaha. should i get the album ? i never once get a signature from an idol before? worse! i want Kyuhyun! Cho Kyuhyun !!! hehs.

been quite bored lately darina is online when i am not ..... and whole afternoon she is gone ? so i kept myself kinda busy by watching shows over and over again , even went lot one get food since mom sick. aigoo , mum has been sick for quite a while now, hope she gets well soon..... really.... hopefully....

btw, money is seriously running low .... very low.... cos my part time tutoring starts maybe after my holiday to KL. yeap! going there soon during december :x hehehe^^

kaykay, got to go...

byebye~

Isnt Kyuhyun Just Hot?

2010-11-13T07:33:00.000-08:00

Some day i know i am going to meet you even though now there is no chance of seeing you in school with the same uniform as i am T_T but we will meet if fate lets us . By then , i would have probably still waiting like fool.
hehehe^^ you all should have seen me and darina's convo on facebook about vampire diaries.. bout damon , elena and stefan . blablalah. we wrote like passages instead of short replies. but seriouly people ? who would you choose? Damon or Stefan? i could Damon for elena. he is better for her though he is consider a bad guy but hey , he is slowly changing for the sake of elena people?? right darina?

okay , meeting yanie soon on thursday i think . watching harry potter :Dmuahahaha. .. was going with darina but she had plans with dahlya to watch it. so , never mind then next time perhaps. okay , i got to go.

byebye~

i need to stop my crave for slod like seriously. hahaha. cant stop watching even though i've watch from season 1 . over and over again. but i prefer season 2 and season 3 .cos during that cole and dylan are taller and voices are deeper :D kaykay. hahaha!

byebye

looks like twinn found a job~

2010-11-12T07:29:00.000-08:00

BOred :P hehs.going johor soon :x going to get EPOP magazine :D muahahahaha! blahblahblah... i dont even know why i am even posting. and hope slod episode it out soon! i need some cailey moments! :D kaykay. hahaha! i'm off ~ byebye

yeah right,

2010-11-10T22:38:00.000-08:00

just went to my tumblr and when i was strolling down my posts ,

i found this.

HINT: Use the "J" and "K" keys to navigate between posts.

yeah like what letters -.-"

Cant Get Back What's Already Lost....

2010-11-10T22:09:00.000-08:00

I do think of you but not that much nowadays, and the hurt i felt has loosen and fading ....
Agioo, And finally the nervousness was off. hehehe^^ me and Twinn got in the same class :D muahaha! But yanie was separated while that is what you get if you choose a different paths but we wont changed we will still be together alright? hehs. and i am hooked on Suite Life On Deck again. god knows why. hahaha! and been listening to sclub8 songs. hahaha. meeting darina for harry potter but she is working on weekdays. maybe asking yanie if darina cant. agiooo,,, work work work. i am working too as a part-time tutor. hehs. for my cousin, hey, i receive payment alright! hehe. okay i am off.. byebye

Kim heechul!

2010-11-09T04:50:00.000-08:00

aigooo ~

i was watching supershow2 with sis then we were watching heechul's solo (soul) . like while watching, the lights of his solo was off and freakingly guess what!!!!! , he kissed one lucky girl's hand after holding it for like more than 20 seconds. FREAKINGLY kissed it!!!! like aigooo..... Freaking jealous. me and sis both shouted and screamed ! then sis wanted to torture herself and watched it again , then she was like ' why do i feel like crying even though he is not my favourite!' HAHAHAHA. but still people~ who doesnt want to be held by heechul's slender hands :D eh-eh la people~

kaykay gtg ~

Happy Birthday Twinn

2010-11-07T07:14:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU TO THE FREAKING MAX !!!!!!! DARINA NHO !

i know you had heartbreaks and sufferings but hey , look on the bright side, you still have all of us. :D right? you are not alone~ hehehe^^ ohmygod i am just happy for you . and dont be sad alright? and i tiny bit dont even regret not knowing yo at all because you are my twinn and i love you for that. hahaha. and we been friends for 2 years now right? almost 2 years . hehehe^^ let's make it forever alright. and btw , i made that for you ! sorry no LEE MINHO or 'Minho' because not really my favourite hehehe.. blah!!! hahaha. and it took me like almost an hour plus to make for you that okay becos need cut here and there and need erase here and there. ahahhahaha :D :D but i love doing this stuff. muahahahaha!

HAPPY 14 BIRTHDAY DARINA NHO !!! hope you like it !!!!!! :D :D :D

and p.s posted this like half an hour earlier than you actual date of birthday . because too excited .hahaha. hope you seriously like it !!!! :D

SARANGHAE DARINA ~

aigoo, minhyuk-ah

2010-11-06T08:21:00.001-07:00

Minhyuk-ah why so CUTE ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

And you wore a freaking cardigan :D that is long , the type where it covers the hand..

mrghhhhhhhhh ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

cute ♥

hehehe^^

this is my day..

2010-11-05T23:30:00.001-07:00

day by day i had stopped thinking about you , i dont know why. it is always a i dont know type of situation. no longer thinking of you everyday...

kwakwakwak~ hehehe^^ i had finally gotten my freaking SuperShow2 DVD people!!! hehe. it arriveed today morning i woke up adn the next thing i know there was a knock on my door and ta-da! my DVD :D:D hehehe :)

watched it straight away with sis. muahaha! kaykay... LOVE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT !!!!!!

anyway, gonna watch harry potter with Twinn :D she gonna watch a marathon she say because she doesnt really know the story line,. hahaha. kk.. good luck but i got to watch it soon. next next week going out with her. should be on thursday. becos that is the day if i am not wrong the show is out!!!! and i am freakiingly excited ttm. kaykay. that is all people...

byebye~

unrequited love........

2010-11-05T05:03:00.000-07:00

Every girl will have that one guy who makes her blush so much when he passes her by and that is you , but It is worth smiling when you're here, because it makes my day ,

i want go paris :D :D someone bring me. hehehe. and sorry to darina that i cant go and celebrate your birthday on the day itself but one freaking day next next week i will go out with you :D i promise you and we can go watch megamind. and yanie's back :D finally! she just reach singapore at 8 ! HAHAHAHA.

and day by day i am getting lazy to even step out of the house. aigooo.... been oning com but never really go out. oh and darina seems online but i dont even know what to say to her at all . hehs. she must be chatting with atikah now~ probably. hhahaa. i go read my manga, or something uh. kay bye!

Tears are words the heart cannot say.

2010-11-04T02:41:00.000-07:00

Aigoo, while i was alone , i kept thinking , i am starting to miss you again , even though i tried to forget you the past few days.you kept coming back in . and sometimes, i get bored like i am still crying over you while you are happier on the other side. the feelings rushed back in , but i just feel dumb to even continue this unrequited love . .....
aish , hope i wont need go back to remedial , next week . Someone's birthday coming soon . (eyebrow up and down to Darina) HAHAHAHA. i'm just bored and beast's soom kept replaying on my mind. i cant take my breath~breath~breath~ , need get a tutition soon . haha. maybe go with yanie since darina already going take lessons . T.T i will think about the place:D then next week too we getting to know what classes we get. hopefully and insyallah , i get to get in class B. i really want it!!! like seriously .kay i am off. :D hahaha!

byebye~

I hate this feeling....

2010-11-01T08:22:00.000-07:00

i give up already T.T did i ? i dont even know :( it just sucks the whole lot!!

the whole week i am just freaking busy -.-" and i am freaking lazy and not in the mood. and going out like almost everyday . all i know the happiest thing is that by friday the ss2 dvd will probably reach :D :D hehehe^^ happy overloading. and btw, on the way back to school i saw someone . he made me smile but he's not kyu . which is weird. i saw this guy again in the bus after almost a month . and he made me smile ? what is wrong with me -.-"

aigoo~

cant believe this is goodbye,

2010-10-29T07:16:00.000-07:00

saw you maybe for the last time yesterday , you saw me and i saw you , yet you dont even know my feelings for you and i dont even exist in your world at all , ..... :'(

today had drama . omg , my hip is like in pain i dont even know why . it hurts. and monday coming back school with darina because of maths remedial. and blahblah. today got alot of happening during music bank eh? beast and shinee goodbye stage, snsd comeback stage. :D hehe^^ and omg at jokwon who looks like budak G. seriously no joke.. right darina? kaykay . erm yesterday was my last day with my dearest 2/5. we had a long and sweet memories together didnt we? i will miss it . ALOT ! actually i will miss every single person in class. hope we wont forget each other and still keep in contact because i know i will still remember you all . ! :D

aigoo , but i still hate the feeling, that i wont be in the same class again . no more those laughters and screaming from us, no more girls giggling to each other , no more boys fighting in class, no more those moments whereby i got disturbed by prayuok with darina. no more buying stuff and staying back with yihui and weilun they all like we used to during term 3. no more singing jolee's name with oh and baby. TT.TT no more those moments. i miss it already ..... aigooo.... goodbye everyone but all i know that we will still meet in the next 2 years before we be in sec 4 and graduate from this school . i love you all ~

tomorrow got ELDS .

2010-10-25T03:18:00.000-07:00

havent see you , someone looked like you just now but it wasnt you . where were you ?
Nothing happened much today. all i know i cant stop laughing with darina because of something. one of it was that yanie spelt joon as jooL . HAHAHA. kaykay. hmm.. what else omg at maths lesson with the anaylsis , like seriously i thought only do ours, but ended up doing like 4 more papers and i felt retarded and ache after raising my hands for almost like every questions. the person just had to fail the paper -.-" aigoo... then today went back early at 1 . haha. but tomorrow got ELDS . HAHAHA. apparently going home late tomorrow. i wonder what we are freakingly even gonna do .. anyway ending here, goodbye.. i'm off

i cant take my breath,breath

2010-10-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

saranghae , i still do...
HAHAHAHA. went Darina's blog and woots. with the food :D like seriously i wish it was real , i would have eaten all of it non-stop . seriously . hahaha. well , it is Delicious from the look of it. kaykay. days of school is coming to an end. this year time flies really fast. the next thing i know i am heading to school as an upper sec. aigoo... :x i wish to get out of that school as soon as possible. -.- i want go NAFA . going for the open house with Darina . see how it goes. hahaha. okay goodbye goodbye....

kyu's hair

2010-10-23T08:53:00.001-07:00

LOOK AT CHO KYUHYUN'S HAIR!!!!

IT IS GROWING AND FIRST TIME HIS FRINGE IS STRAIGHT.

HOPE IT LAST LONG. MOSTLY BY THE END OF THE YEAR THEY WILL FREAKING CURL HIS HAIR -.- !

AHHHHHHHHHHH KYUHYUN~~~~~~

ps. credits to owner :D

i wish you like me

2010-10-23T08:04:00.000-07:00

aigoo , i seriously wish i get rid of these feeligns fast :(

HAHAHA. decided with Darina not going to SS3 and decided to go and shopshopshop with that money instead and for Sj , we gonna stalk them of course.. hehe. who knows they will be shopping at orchard :D hehe. and i can catch a glimpse of Kyuhyun <3>.< hmm.. people who went kpop night must be like in cloud nine now dont they T.T aishaishaish.. kk. but still .... anyway now waiting for miss darina to online to chat. kkk. byebye

i feel like letting go

2010-10-22T00:28:00.000-07:00

i feel like letting go. i dont know part of me says , i am getting along fine with this goodbye but a part of me says that i miss him so freaking much. But when i dont get to see him , my mind will start wonder where he is and search for him but when he is near and i get to see him , my heart is not hurting anymore. my heart doesnt beat as fast? or am i just lying to myself in order to forget him ?
AIGOOO!!! how CUTE CAN MINHYUK BE :D :D hehehe^^ and ahhhhh~~ hehehe. Okayokay. currently not alot of money with me now in my piggy bank and how go ss3? u tell me. urghh.. it's okay actually if i dont go , but i do want see them, if i cant see them , then i have to force myself to really chase them with a van or something.i have to see kyuhyun <3 MUAHAHA. kk.. erm , watched playful kiss. eh-eh la eh. kk. hahaha. erm i dont even know what to say anymore. bored? darina not online i guess? haha. and i am currently waiting till mom finish cooking so i can eat. i think i am gaining weight. HAHA. well, i'm off then. bye

if only it was that simple

2010-10-19T07:09:00.001-07:00

if only i was that smart and that freaking hardworking :(
Now i know , i must work even harder than before. i have to put aside kpop but it is so hard to freaking resist. what can i do? i need to occupy myself with school instead of watching or looking through kpop stuff in the internet everyday . the results show that i had wasted my time even though i had studied hard ! i did. i spent 3 days on science . but no . it didnt help. :( aigoo... I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF ! now i need go tuition , maybe going with yanie .haha. since darina want go back to her tuition with dahlya .hehe. hmphs. which tuition should i even go ? never mind ~ now all i need do is go back to sleep :P and figure out what am i going to do in my future !

one word,

2010-10-18T05:03:00.000-07:00

Disappointed :(

My results are just freaking Sucky :(

Hope i do pass everything :D

hopefully and pray ..

too late...

2010-10-17T07:22:00.000-07:00

I sometimes have the feelings that i miss you because you are no longer around to see at school and sometimes the feeling that it is better you are gone at least i wont have the feeling of pain from watching at a distance. but i just dont know the feeling i am feeling now :(
hehe^^ today was such a hilarious day with sis. omg i cant stop laughing with her. kaykay. i have a room to myself now. i moved from being with sis room for the rest of the 7 years. HAHAHA. cant believe tomorrow going to get exams papers. like freaking fast and i am feeling extremely nervous ttm. :( hope i pass everything especially english since if i fail , i will just drop T.T and i aint gonna drop . Hopefully :D kay , now just waiting for miss darina to be online since she hasnt. bored bored. maybe going to watch videos to keep me busy from waiting .hahaha. kk. bye~

i cant believe this is goodbye..

2010-10-15T03:29:00.000-07:00

i cant believe you are gone. no longer the guy i wanted to see most in school . no longer able to see your face any longer. you're gone. now i really hate the word goodbye . even though you hurt me , even though you broke my heart many times without knowing. i still love you . but now , there is no one for me to love anymore. the guy had already left. without saying goodbye to me , he just left. without turning back to see whether i was there. because i know in his eyes i am just another girl in school who has nothing to do in his life. but deep inside, i am the girl who will cry whenever i see a picture of him with someone , or even make my heart beat so fast whenever he's near. it is so wonderful the feeling . i will never forget but i want that feeling to stay forever in me. :'( i guess, my love for you the past months are just wasted but something in me says that i dont regret loving you . because , you are the first guy ever to broke my heart, make me fall in love deeper,the guy whom i cried for, the person who made my heart beat like crazy and lastly , you are first guy who left me without me able to confess my love to you.

what to do ? this is my fate. but i hope fate let us meet one day because i know i will miss you so much . and dying to see your face once again :( i was out just now , hoping to see you , there was so many upper secs in lot one but maybe it was just my luck i guess. i thought i saw you but it was different person.. :'( whoa, i open facebook , and there , your face :'(

i'm just tired ... of all this ...

2010-10-14T07:04:00.000-07:00

i'm just tired of all this. you already left. i didnt even say goodbye . you were so near yet we were so far. i didnt even went up to you and say goodbye. i just stood there but i didnt even look at you. i know when i look at you , this heart of mine will just start hurting and it will start to swell .because of you , i dont know how many times my heart had gotten swollen . you were just there right in front my eye for the last time but i didnt even do anything . i just let you leave without any goodbye. if i were given a chance to hug you , i would. i definitely would. if only i could be in your arms? :( sadly it is just my imagination .so this is it then. no more anticipation to see you and no more heart beating like it is gonna explode. no more that smile i always get to see whenever you talk to your friend. it is all gone now isnt it? i just have to accept it. but promise me one thing even though you dont even know i existed , that you will come back and let me see you again. because oppa , Saranghae....

so i was given a chance to see him for the last time today . even though we were near , i was so far to even say anything. i wasnt even given a chance to say goodbye because i know , i will just be a pathetic person saying that to him as a stranger as him and i are strangers.... Well , no more ______ in my life. anymore... i am freaking in love with you . urghhh.... :X :x :x anyway, went lot one with yanie and darina, had fun and alot of laughters at least it stop me from thinking what is actually happening in my mind. it sort of let me be in peace for a while like as though it didnt happened. like all this wouldnt happened. it was all a dream and i would wake up and things will just be back like it used to be. but too bad , this is reality and this is my fate. :( i have to accept it right?

will fate bring us together?

will i see you again ?

lies and more lies ,

2010-10-12T04:17:00.000-07:00

Great days are decreasing and now i am left with a day and a few hours left. you're leaving and it is making feeling more hurt because i know i will have to depend on luck to get to see you again once you leave this school. no more seeing that smile of yours , no more hearing your voice , no more having that nervous feeling when you are near, cant i like hug you and say i love you to you before you leave? :'(

i saw him finally , again , and and again . i saw you alot today. which makes me miss you even more when you leave , urgh. i hate this feeling alot. must you leave? must you live so far when i can only hope of seeing you is so little? :( Omg , i feel like crying . i seriously feel like hugging him right now. aish , anyway, went lot one with darina and yanie today :D hehe. talk talk talk then bought badges hehe. finally i have kyu's name :D muahahaha. darina bought hyukjae and yanie obviously bought Kikwang :D den saw someone , darina started to smile retardly, walk walk to someone's block , den yanie went meet someone, den me and darina was laughing damn badly , omg i can still repeat that moment. it was freaking hilarious. i still remember when i thought i drop the eggs and i freaking screamed then we started laughing. then me and darina talked about someone. and started smiling blahblah.. kaykay. i'm off. goodbye:D

i wish you knew it sometimes,

2010-10-11T06:16:00.000-07:00

i just realised i'm left with 2 days . i didnt get to see you today but what about tomorrow ? i'm left with tomorrow and thursday then can i at least hug you goodbye ? or hold your hand or even say goodbye ? Can i see you ever again once you leave this school ? i know if it is fate , fate will let us meet right? if we are not fated to meet then i guess i just have to wish i do get to see you . even so , i will miss you and you should know that i love you , you hurt me again and again unknowingly but i still continue to love you even though at times i told myself to forget you but you are just to hard for me to just erase completely . urgh . i hate the word goodbye from now on because it will remind me of the day you left and the day i will last see you . I love you freaking much.
finally a day with the eh-ehs today :D went ate kfc breakfast with them and had a freaking happy time with them while chatting about stuff :D muahaha. we have to do it , i cant just let it go pass by that easily right? more over , i have my friends :D hehe^^ that was all i need.. And i finished episode 12 ! finally people . Playful kiss i have reached your 12th episode (: can i seriously be that girl ? and ______ be that guy ? O.o hehehe. before my mind get crazy . seriously i love the show even though the ratings for the show isnt high. but still i watched it. like hate Haera ttm ! urghh.. she is just getting in the way ! NO JOKE ! kaykay better off this post . kay . good night world. have a great dream . a good dream is always a nice memory to think about :) okay i'm off ...

you dont realised it till now

2010-10-09T10:10:00.000-07:00

IT IS BEEN A WHILE SINCE THE EH-EHS chatted together :D

LOVE THEM TTM!!! HEHEHEHEHE <3

DARINA YANIE NISA <3>

they are always there for me

just like me for them :D what are friends for...

but there is someone whom i wont forget ever ,

is you...

if you understand.. (You Will Never Know Me even when you're leaving)

2010-10-08T07:52:00.001-07:00

I saw you , my heart skipped a beat. it is always the usual thingy . with the heartbeat and the usual smiling and blushing moment. Cant you see it? how i feel for you ? that is real ? :( you will never know and i will never get to tell you my feelings once you leave. what is with the freaking days decreasing till is a single number which is last then 5 ? i wanted to be with you and always will . but hey , i dont even exist in your world. :'( it is is painful enough , i feel it alone but cant you at least know me? my feelings for you ? :'( even if you are leaving i know a part of my heart wont forget you and will still love you ...

today had study partner with yanie. hahahaha. was fun and hilarious. blahblah.. lazy uh wanna type it out. hahaha. like was doing our hair for like half an hour. like it is always either darina or yanie who will do my fringe. hahaha. :D like yanie was like pulling more and more hair from the corner till it became almost like i have full fringe in front. hahahaha. kaykay ... then the rest was history. sorry uh lazy wanna type but darina! aish should have come she cant. if she could she would already be there. aish . if not can freaking heart to heart talk with the three of us there. and one thing yanie got disappointed her kikwang's badge people had bought it. hahahaha. kk.. then he teehee was there and i ask her go but she was like blushing and smiling retardedly . hahaha.kk

gonna wait for darina to online now:D bye

sometimes, things are not meant to be . Right?

2010-10-07T04:39:00.001-07:00

i love my twinn , dear , idk what is nisa though :'( never mind. but something about it bothers me much, someone must be there to listen to my worries and tears. but who? my twinn? my dear? nisa?

T.T well if you realised something is missing in my post you better know, i am refering to you , yes you.

i dont like you . i'm sorry . very sorry . but you are just not my type of person to hang around with.

dont you realised you are just freaking breaking all of us again without knowing and worse , it is you who was the

one who said i will try but hey , it is you all along too .

freak uh .

haishh..

i dont know what to do now.

i'm just confused.

had a h2h talk with yanie ,

i wanted to do with darina but she wasnt available maybe tomorrow i guess?

all three of us is gonna have a h2h talk i guess.

yeah we should.

kay , i'm off..

Goodbye forever after next week .

2010-10-05T05:26:00.001-07:00

You Will Never Appear In School Again After Next Week and The Year

picture from Darina's camera. hehehe^^ yeapyeap. Remember seeing hankyung that day :D yeap. right in front of my freaking eye!

Today had First ever in my year of sec 2 EOY paper. GOD! like seriously that fast?

kay whatever. Seriously , i was like seriously . kay btw ,

Saw people today with Darina :D hehehe. like first it was during morning assembly then hehehe.. recess and Darina was like smiling retardedly . covering and drinking her drink . like seriously saw him twice today :) how much happier can i get?

bored. and tomorrow having lunch with sis and mom and lot one. hehe^^ so cant go and study with Darina tomorrow :'( sorry darina.

btw , hahaha.

how much cuter can you get ? and melting my heart once more?

okay i'm off people~

should i really try smiling with teeth ? :P

try later on ..

bye~

sighs

2010-10-03T07:29:00.000-07:00

i dont like talking about my past relationship because it reminds me of how my mom scolded me like she never did before.

that is why i dont like talking about it. i remember even not being able to go home

hope you understand. it is not like i dont like admitting the fact i did what i did. it is just reminds me of what happened between me and my family.
i just hate the freaking period of that time
do understand. it wasnt a plesant one to think about and remember.

wouldnt risk my love even just one night,

2010-10-03T05:15:00.000-07:00

God my camera for my phone megapixels sucks . hahaha. but anyway , Today studied alone.

Since my twinn went and studied at macs. hahaha! i learnt like 2-3 chapters of Science today .

and i finally understood the chapter :D muahaha! -claps-

Bored . Currently chatting with Twinn . haha! what should i do currently? i am updating this blog?

and thanks for tagging? hehs. and hating someone to extreme point whereby i havent even hate someone

that much . like i tried being nice to you and this is what you did to me in the end?

well , i think it is just pintu's nature. haha. like a freaking snake :D hehehe. like twist here and there.

Tomorrow , will have to see her again , and have to freaking see her the next upcoming years.

and Budak Tinggi finally accepted thanks to yanie for her luck :D and it did work ! without wishing

for 11:11 . hehehe.. :D finally after waiting for like 2-3 days. ? he finally accepted friends request.

kay , i should end it here. wanna continue my chat :D bye~

I saw Hankyung today with twinn

2010-10-02T07:56:00.001-07:00

OMG uh like we get to see Hankyung Today ? like seriously we managed to see him . like freaking near :D like no joke type of situation seriously . he was just there :D muahahaha. Darina was practically screaming and grabbing me like no one business . hahaha! well , that is DARINA NHO !!

like omg he is freakingly Tall . Duh what do u expect for someone taller than 180cm ? :D

Like we managed to study for like an hour then we went up to fifth level and there it goes , we thought it will be like SHINee where we just standing pathetically behind the sliding doors , but no , we got in like FREE . YEAH FREE! So me and Darina went like at this corner where everything was clear ! and there he was HANGKYUNG PEOPLE!! like in front of our eyes :D

okay. that is all uh . Btw, brought friendship band with Darina and it is blue ~
yeah , that is how much we have eaten :D Hungry people~ and we ate in clean :D muahahaha... nyahaha..
yeah imagining , someone wearing it . Hot ! like duh _____ wearing it is just nice with ankle pants :D muahaha.

i know it is just _____ but still ? XD

BTW FANCAM IS AT DARINA'S BLOG :D

You Let Me Know..

2010-10-01T19:48:00.001-07:00

i didnt see you yet again . Where were you ? i kept seeing the wrong person all the time. You seems to disappear out of my life. Cant i see for just once ? What if you leaving and i am not there to see that?
I want to se you so much and i Miss you . But you are gone . Cant i see one last time before i have no more chance of seeing your face :'(

you are torturing me.

2010-09-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

I JUST LOVE MY EH-EHs / The Loners alot.
:D
LOve you guys to the freaking max <3 <3

God let all of us meet each other and be together :D

my wish came true XD

2010-09-28T07:35:00.000-07:00

I Saw There Right Below when i came down . . . .
my wish came true.
but i'm left with a few days?

my love is like fool .

2010-09-25T08:19:00.000-07:00

friends all jalan-ing raya while i am stucked here,
and i freaking got hurt .
i fell on the way back from home :(
like i fell down on the freaking slope :X
like out of all things to fell onto .
a slope ?!!?
aish! now i hurt my neck . like sprained it. not really sprain.
but you get what i mean . like seriously.
i cant even turn my neck without a little pain coming back.
OHMYGOD uh . aish .. can i just like cry with the pain .]it hurts
badly. and mom put medication and it burnts like hell lot.
-.-"
what a freaking day to happened.
sis ask why never go with my friends for jalan raya , said cant go
cos of my freaking period and i just fell down. hello?
LOL!
and i freaking forgotten what else to write.
o.o
oh yeah , i gotten money today :D hehehe.
30 dollars richer :D
muahahahaha.

i didnt see you but something is wrong

2010-09-24T08:14:00.000-07:00

i search for you .
but i wasnt that disappointed at all that i didnt see you .
but where were you ?
in a week , i saw you once .
maybe i will never see you again and you will be gone from my life.
and that is the last thing i want to happen :(

again , it is always because of you .

2010-09-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

Just now someone just had to say , you have been kissed before. i put a smile when someone said it , thinking it is going to be okay. but deep down inside i wanted to cry i dont know why . my heart just suddenly hurts. i kept quiet and tried to ignore what is being said :( you hurt me yet again without knowing :(

Boy ,you're Gorgeous (:

2010-09-20T02:26:00.000-07:00

OMGOMGOMGOMG!!

Main point of Today , First when canteen in the freaking morning and there you are over there from the

the middle of the walkway was YOU .

YOU were right in front of my very eye . and you looked at me but i missed it :(

i cant even look at you with feeling the excitement in myself. everytime i tried to look at you ,

my heart just cant seem to stop beating very fast.

you were just there . Even when the bells when off you were still there and i was able to

see you from above :D it was such a nice timing and a perfect day isnt it ? (:

he made my freaking day.

...............................

Main point of today no.2 , While walking back , me and Darina both saw this ITE guy .

and OMG people . new word for omg situation is ........ G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S . he was freaking

Gorgeous people . with the hair , sneakers and listening to his earpiece . like eh-eh this people~

like his side profile freaking ROCKS to the freaking of the freaking MAXX!!

it was beyond words. like his hair was to the side. Me and Darina cant even stop laughing .

Can i tell you something . ..

Me and Darina both freaking pee like right at that moment .

:X sick. sick . sick . But what to do .. hehehe^^

like seriously this guy is like a freaking OMG GORGEOUS SITUATION !!!

ahh .. he made my day . . . .

Because of him me and darina cant even walk straight and cant stop ourselves from laughing.

it was as though he brought a laughing cgas with him :X

hehehe^^ cute la .

HOT PEOPLE FREAKING HOT !!!! :D AND BEST OF ALL HE IS FREAKING TALL!!!!

to that guy ,

Can i see you again ?

like you are just a stranger but you made my heart beat beats so damn fast.

you made smile for no reason .

you are the perfect kind of guy i would want.

can i really see you again ?

hope so <3

FREAKING GORGEOUS OVERLOADED !!!

i saw you today ,

2010-09-16T02:09:00.001-07:00

The left side of my heart hurts so much , As it gets crushed by something , Every time I breathe

When I think of you, when I hear something about you

For a long time, my heart was in so much pain,

and i finally i saw you there right in front of my bear eyes :D you were there and it felt like as though it was a dream .

and i cant believed you appeared after 2 weeks ? :(

seeing your face seems to brightened up my freaking days .

but as the day goes on something is going to happened.

it is like i have this funny feeling :(

i search for you doesnt mean i stalk you ,

2010-09-15T08:38:00.001-07:00

Where are you?

I want see you like seriously . But you were no where to be found .

i cant even see a slight glance . What if i will never see you again?

what if this is goodbye ?

i dont want this kind of goodbye :(

i'm thinking of you yet it still hurts ...

2010-09-13T01:40:00.001-07:00

I was thinking about you again today and i cant seem to stop myself from posting all this
freaking type of post because this is how i truly feel right now .
just now at class while i was talking to darina , we found out that we were left
with 25 more school days and then it is farewell for us to see them .
where were you today?
why cant i see you ? i wanted to see you . i wanted to see your face . i havent seen your face
for a week . and i missed it . why is it then when i search for you , you werent there but
when i am broken and dont even wish to see you , you always appear before me.
when i need you , you are not there , when i dont even want you , you appear ,
why are you doing this to me? it is hurting me . Cant for once you love me?
even if it is just a freaking moment and hug me and tell me you love me ?

.....
..
i dont want farewell ... i dont want to wait for a time where i can see you ,
i want see you everyday , but i know i cant ....

and i will never will ...

and i found something so true ...
Here’s to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone; who spend hours reading random love quotes to find the right one; who wait online for that one certain person to sign on just to say hello; who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot; who deserve so much more than they get and are willing to fight for it and whose wish upon a shooting star was wasted on someone that will never care.

hehes , Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-12T04:19:00.000-07:00

:D hehehehe!!

dont want to talk alot because i am freaking lazy wanna type what happened :D

i love today because everyone came to my house .

blahblah ..

everyone was fasinated bby my cat .. all my cousin put their leg up .

hhaha! and i was like wth ? yeah i know , i was onced like that too ,

i even screamed at the coffee shop . hehs.

so first day ,

not gonna say anything but pictures can right? hehes ...

so took a picture and one of the picture is my profile pic ~

blahblahblah ...

like sis brought her DSLR . God i want one for myself :( and the pictures turn our

very nice :D

one thing i know is ,

and i love how the pctures turned out rectangle :D like a long rectangle ~

i realised when people take candids , the chances are they will know how you truly feel at that moment

then ate like freaking three types of rendeng and non-stop motion ,

like cousin was making that wtf face to me and i was like making it back.

like i am hungry . so what ? hehee . . . . that was the first house la .

and i ate like 5 hotdog bread GOD nora nora nora . . . .

i was like freaking hungry yesterday . . .

kkk... the rest were history dont remember much uh .

yesterday even worse , one whole day i wasnt home til like almost 10 gituh.

like damn tired but at night had a heart to heart talk with Darina .

T_T

talk here and there....

kay now i am freaking tired so off to do other things.

OH
YEAH! ALMOST FORGET !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bye~

i didnt see you . . . .

2010-09-08T07:32:00.002-07:00

it hurts so bad that you will never know , and you will never feel my pain

I wonder what it will be like if you were mine and i was yours,

and how you will treat and how nice it was to even hold you hand around .

or how you put you arm around me like you did to her or even walk around

school with only you by my side . But those things are just my dream , my fantasy ,

my freaking daydreaming world that no one will know . Why cant for once,

i will be able to be awake and live the dream ? and you were mine . i guess

it will never happen will it -.-

my sad story of love...

i need to stop writing about my sad love life because it just reminds me of him.

i have to go back to my normal cheerful post. right?

maybe i will start tomorrow . but not today .

when darina not online , i tend to think about him and it is not a good habit.

i have to shake it off . he keeps coming back to my mind.

and it is not getting any better as he is leaving me .

and leaving me and will never know my feelings for him .EVER.

will i ever find someone who wll hold me in his arms?

i want to see you badly ..

2010-09-07T09:04:00.000-07:00

cant we go back to this ?
we used to be like this carefree and happy .
but we seem to fade somehow .
and i dont like it.
i want the old us .
where we will laugh nonstop and go around together
now mostly it is either three of us , two of us .
not four.
it is damn rare to see the four of us now together.
having fun .
where is the old us ?
did it disappear?

oppa , i'll be waiting like a fool

2010-09-04T08:42:00.001-07:00

My feelings arent my feelings ,

Like emptiness inside, it's aching and in pain ,

It feels as though , it was all worn out because of loving you ..

But why at the same time it feels so right to have such a feeling for you ?

I love you and i never forget you forever.. is that too much to ask for?

cant you just once accept me ?

or once dont see me but never even say the word hi ?

what happens if i could forget?

2010-09-02T07:17:00.000-07:00

why is this happening to me ?
=.=
i hate this freaking feeling that i am feeling right now~

why does it feel like i could forget you ?
T.T

but then again , once i see you face ,

the word forget just forgets me ...

again , you are in my mind =.=

2010-09-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

Can like for awhile i stop thinking of you ?
if this goes on how will i stop thinking of you
when you are gone next year.
and next year means 2 months till the last farewell.
.
i hate this feeling.
i hate falling for you in the first place :X

darina , i'm here for you :D

2010-08-31T03:40:00.000-07:00

hey , hey , dont worry ..
dont cry .
me and hyukkie and jonghyun and all are here for you .
and not forgetting yanie ,
okay ?
yeah , i know how you feeling exactly .
hey , we are here for you when you need ask .
i know it hurts to see him saying about someone else,
but hey , you have no wrong in not liking him right?
you have your rights?

okay okay ... i know you are happy to see him but i know
deep down you are hurting because he's not yours..
i will talk to you soon ..
please darina dont cry ..
or i will start to cry too ...
:X

saranghae twinn :D

A love that always hurt only me,

2010-08-30T05:22:00.001-07:00

yeah , and once again i pathetically smile again when i see you ,
what is happening to me ?
you just had to appear , you just had to be there :X
but why ?
tell me why why why why !
=.=

yeah ,

you hurt me but ...

2010-08-28T23:34:00.000-07:00

i found something so true :X
and it is about you ...

I hate how you make me smile. I hate how every time your name is mentioned, my stomach churns and my heart starts racing. I hate how we’re not even friends. I hate how we look each other straight in the eye and don’t say a word. I hate how I try so hard to mean something to you. And I hate the fact that I can’t stop thinking about you, because it kills me inside knowing that I’m nothing to you.

oppa , naega kaseum neomu apayeo ..

2010-08-28T05:30:00.000-07:00

what am i gonna do in 2 months ?

2 months more till the last goodbye .

2 months more till i no longer will ever see him again .

What am i gonna do ?

is this how it feels like when it is farewell ?

Why must i feel the pain ?

why must i feel all this feelings and he doesnt =.=

.....

yeah , the feeling kept coming back, no matter how hard i tried to keep

telling myself , i am over you and done . but no , whenever you appear ,

i start to smile for no reason . but the funny thing is that , i remembered

i managed to get you out of my mind but it only lasted a week maybe?

maybe if i tried harder it will help me forget you as these months passes by .

in the first place , could i even erase you from this mind and remove you from my heart?

sometimes i am tired of waiting for you ,

tried of waiting for you when i know i will never be with you ,

tired of all this looking from a distance , =.=

.......

Why must i fall for you in the first place?

Why must you make me fall in love with you ?

if we didnt met , if i didnt see you , maybe all these wouldnt have happened

and my heart wouldnt get broken . Worst still . it wouldnt be broken by you .

.......

i used to dont even care about you , i used to be just normal and my heart dont

even start to flutter when you're near but something about you this year ,

just makes it alot of difference . Loving you was my punishment , because the more

i love you , the more i think of you , the more i freaking see you ,

the more the pain in my heart starts to deepen and swell .

.......

Cant you understand my heart?

Why cant you answer me when i shout I Love You to you ,

.........

you going to leave soon as months goes by , as days goes by ,

and i know i cant even say goodbye to you ,

you would never know me and neither will you forget me .

but i know , i will never forget you ...

.......

As much as i wanted to forget you ,

i just cant .

that is the pain of a one sided love T.T

neomu , saranghae~

heartbreaking and made me cry .. like seriously

2010-08-27T02:07:00.001-07:00

dont you ?

i know Darina and Yanie would :(

saranghae~~

2010-08-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

GOD THIS SONG T.T
and JAEJIN-ARH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why so heartbreaking and sweet :D MMMMMMMMMMMMM

i will forever remember and ♥ 210810 ♥ :D

2010-08-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

credits to cosmic

Today as usual . went school . hahaha!

took the bus was like damn sleepy so i on playlist.

and all types of songs came out .

but then yanie smsed and i woke up , den she smsed again

i replied and sleep again till i cant even sleep so i just look out at the window uh.

den had lessons blahblahblah .

ahaha!

as per normal things were alright :D hehe^^

anyway ,

nothing special happened today at all . just as usual and normal .

Tomorrow got DNT , haish , our class damn slow as compare to the other group of our class.

anyway ?

what is the lastest kpop news of my fave bands?

eh ?

i dont know , erm.. all i noe in a week time SM is out for SMTOWN in LA =.=

sad sad sad ..

haishh .. dont know what else uh . hahaha!

waiting for people to be online la~

and also

i will forever remember and ♥ 210810 ♥ :D

everybody clap clap clap ~

2010-08-23T08:11:00.000-07:00

i just realised , that i have this , the one they introduce themselves :D

hehehe^^

kays~ random post right? but i was looking through my camera's vid,

and came across this . yeayea~

hahaha!

erm . i miss them too darina~ i really do !

haiz..

it all happen damn fast . one minute they are on stage ,

the other they alr on a plane back to korea =.=

we hope to see ya soon CNBLUE!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!

If you hate us so much might as well dont act nice to us please , it is just plain disgusting

2010-08-22T08:13:00.000-07:00

T.T

i thought you all were nice people , like not racist and accept people

behaviours . BUT NO! what you all said was just hurtful . hey ,

for your freaking info it is our mouth and not yours and btw ,

it is not our fault that you dont have much fun like ours ?

and , what is a class without any noise? ?

if you are gonna hate us , hey , we have like 2 more years seeing the

same faces again .

pretending to be nice when behind the freaking computer you are talking

full craps and shit about us .

and GOD !

so what if one laughter is loud , it is a called a laughter people.

where is the fun in life without laughters. FREAKING PEOPLE!

LISTEN TO THE CNBLUE !

2010-08-21T06:54:00.000-07:00

what i saw and what i know . i think it is gonna be a long post. maybe :D

haha .! okay let's start!!

okay . so first me and Darina went in :D hehe^^ yeap we went in .

Then our hearts were pumping like damn fast and n

ervous like all kind of emotions were mixed together .

Surprising like the fans were mostly nunas. like are u kidding me type of situation .

okayokay .

so waited for like almost half an hour , until . hehehe^^ YONGHWA!

yonghwa went out first then followed by the rest! like suddenly the hall was full of screaming fans and name chantings :D hehe^^ like Yonghwa was blabbering in english which i managed to understand like a few the rest was just lost and confusing but overall he was great. So then they introduced themselves .

AWW .. Minhyuk was so cute they were going to perform .

The songs were , I'm a Loner , Lovelight , Love revolution ,Now or Never, Where will you go and also , Burning ver . of I'm a loner . they sang quite alot of songs right? Like before i forget , they even performed LOVE :D duh ? okay , so they first performed Let's Go Crazy right ?

Screaming and clapping was included

Then fans started screaming their heads off ! :D haha^^

Erm like everyone was chanting all names and all the lyrics together . haha!

Minhyuk twirled his sticks :D hehe^^ cuteness . Jungshin was concentrated with his bass and

Jonghyun as usual kept smiling and smiling :D hehehe^^and Yonghwa waved the first time to everyone.

so after that performance was their introduction . hehe^^

Yonghwa as usual with his english and mostly asking the fans to Shhh... ,Jungshin was okay ,

then it was Jonghyun , i cant hear clearly what he was saying but his voice was sweet and then Minhyuk , awww....

Cuteness and he was the one saying what songs they will be performing :D but then they was some sound problem and minhyuk ran into the backstage to inform them . cuteness! Then

came ,

Love revolution if i am not wrong , OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Jungshin sang/rap ? Omg which make me evrn more in love with LOVE REVOLUTION !

Ehehehehe ^^ nice !~~ i wanted to scream ! like Jungshin >. like nice voice to hear .

hehe^^ he should really rap and sing instead of always snapping his fingers like he did in WGM .

haha! It made me fall in love with that song because Jungshin sang it :D hehe^^

then followed by I'm A Loner, 'Love Love My Love Is Gone~~~~'

omg Me and Darina was like singing along to all the lyrics non-stop.

Then after that song , they sang LoveLight . Everyone was like too busy screaming to

even remember the lyrics . hehe^^ when Yonghwa asked to sing everyone was too

blank but tried hard to sing :D hee~ like it was really nice and sweet :D hehe^^ great job

to both Yonghwa and Jonghyun for the singing:D Like some said that Jonghyun

kept pulling his shirt and his pants :D hahaha! cute uh ~ then it was ,

but Yonghwa was shocked when he asked again to sing along most fans did and he was like WOW~!

Then they performed erm , LOVE!! everyone started to scream and singing

along and clap in everyway possible . hehe^^ then when it was part of the part

where CNBLUE asked fans to scream and make you high, the whole hall was full of screaming fans well , including me and Darina. at the background it was showing LOVE mv .

nice nice nice. that was when i had an eye-contact with jungshin through my binoculars . hahaha!

Soon came the encore !

everyone was shouted encore and guess what ,

they did they performed the burning version of i'm a loner :D

and Yonghwa asked everyone to stand and rock along with them.

Fans were jumping and screaming as usual . And Jonghyun pheww..

was seriously burning ! everyone in the stage was hot when performing

the burning ver. , i eyed contacted with him too and he smiled . haha! while darina too ....

he smiled at her too~~ then Darina wanted to hit me with

the freaking binoculars well it was like 1cm away from my face ..

hahaha so when they performed one way~ one time~,

it showed screen of them in black in white singing alot in freaking 3D . hehehe^^ yeap .

and Minhyuk side profile is loved . again i heard Jungshin rapped but this time

it was with Minhyuk songs because i dont really like the beat ,

but once they performed it , whoa , i LOVE IT! the screen that the showed was hotness ,

everyone was wearing black and Jonghyun and Minhyuk hair was awesome and hot!

hehe~ then lastly , they performed now or never , hehehe^^ mic problems again in the end but Yonghwa apologize about it the question and answer part

! haha! then i remember from those questions they asked if they werent in cnblue where will they be ,

Jungshin answered , he will be a photographer ,

Jonghyun answered , he will be an athlete (:D hmmm..)

and before Yonghwa could answered , a fan screamed Snsd ! and he laughed

and whispered to minhyuk but he showed his wedding ring :D

hahaha but he did answered it was a shoe designer, and

Minhyuk answered he will be like us

FANS of idols . hehe^^ one more question was erm if i am not wrong ,

it was if they were to have a new album will they come to Singapore for a full concert ? i cant really remember who said what but i did remembered Minhyuk answering 'OF COURSE!'

awwwwwwwwwww. it just shot me to death because of the cuteness when he said that. awww.. then rest i couldnt really remember much because busy screaming. then it was to grant fans wishes .

JEALOUSY OCCUR TO THOSE WHO DIDNT GET INCLUDING US!

fans gotten hugs , serenade song from yonghwa but got a hug from the back by cnblue T.T

gotten to take a picture with them T.T and of course a freaking signed cnblue album by all of them !

cry cry cry cry~~

then there was a special give where by randoms fans get to receive cnblue stuff ,

Jungshin = t-shirt that had been worn ,

Jonghyun = a signed guitar pick

Yonghwa = a signed guitar pick

and Minhyuk .NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!= a freaking pair of his drum sticks T.T T.T

then after that they showed a fan video of them . everyone was embarassed

but they must be touched :D thanks cnbluesgfc !! and at the end CNBLUE waved to us all ...

omg!!! i managed to get an eye contact with jungshin and minhyuk when they waved

omg omgomgogmomg!!!!!!!!

they waved at us people! they freaking waved!!!!! :D :D :D

ending it here , and i am proud to say !

EVERYONE WAS SO GOOD-LOOKING IN PERSON. AND YONGHWA IS GOOD IN INTERACTING WITH FANS BUT IT MADE US LAUGH

when he asked us to shhhhhh everytime he wanted to say something ,

Minhyuk was hotness in the drums , Jonghyun was burning with his guitar and

Jungshin was cool with his bass..... overall performance cool and great and i

never wanted it to end please the next time CNBLUE coming here for concert pls try

be working with sistics for tickets T.T thanks! videos of interview are

at my facebook account .performance yet to upload!

bye~ so coming soon my version of fancam :D hahahah!!

Love Love Love :D

2010-08-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

credits to Teensmag :D

I CANT FREAKING BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE ARE ACTUALLY GONNA SEE THEM SOON !
AND THE WORD SOON IS LIKE TOMORROW !!!!!!!! MMMMMMM--MMMMMM
LIKE EH-EH
IT FEELS LIKE A FREAKING DREAM :D LIKE NO JOKE TYPE OF SITUATION
.
LIKE FINALLY I CAN SEE THEM IN MY OWN EYES.
LIKE EVEN THOUGH SOME PPL GET TO SEE THEM TODAY AND YESTERDAY ,
AT LEAST THE BEST PART OF TOMORROW SHOWCASE IS THAT IT IS
A PRIVATE EVENT :D ONLY LIKE 1000 PLUS PPL CAN VIEW WITH TICKETS!
HEHEHEHE^^

LIKE DAMN EXCITED UH AND HAPPY.

AND SPEECHLESS...

LIKE EH-EH

TOO MUCH OF A DREAM COME TRUE!!

CANT WAIT!!!

CNBLUE HERE WE COME .

LOVE LOVE LOVE~~

This Just Sucks TTM

2010-08-17T07:51:00.000-07:00

Credits: HeeChul's Baidu Bar

LOST AND CONFUSED !
all i know is that i want MEET LADY HEE HEE <3 <3
Friends having their problems .
I can do nothing about it even if i could i still cant.i can
only lend a listening ear .

sometimes , i tell myself , have i hide all problems to
myself abit too much ?

hilarious and silent laugh day ~

2010-08-16T03:17:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHA!

Taemin <3>

no..... no ...... i wont go back to him anymore even though

i liked him first in shinee but no .. i cant.. :(

omg i dont even know where to freaking start like seriously .

kay ! morning Darina and Me like reached the freaking school like at 0720 .

hahaha! so we have like freaking 50 mins till like the bell ring .

Den i asked yanie where she was den she was like still at home.

den talk craps with Darina as usual . hahaha! yeah ..

den Yanie came den we started to talk about YOG . out of all things.

we TALKED ABOUT YOG! hahaha! was laughing and so on . Den blah2

den after that PE . hehehe^^ was like doing the freaking hitting the bat den i

was like laughing again becos Yanie was like being a freaking commentator .

den blahblah . Recess and we sat like a few mins at the bench den went up class.

ahhaha.

and that is when the laughter starts . actually during maths. heh ^ i rank 7 oi .

7!! hahaha . but out of all ppl to be 7th place with me is Jian Kai uh ?

haizzz...

den started laughing once yanie shouted ______!!! like out of the blue.

and me and yanie and shalini saw him . hahaha! den darina was like

despo and kept saying 'manemanemane?' and shaking her head everywhere.

ahahaha! hilarious and i kept mimicking her freaking reactions . like

'dont lie , kaw jgn tipu akw , dont ! ' and others uh . hahaha!

omg silent laughters are hard to control cos u have to be silent and not out loud.

ahahaha!

kkk .. den after el den went home and ohh .. we got to go see YOG badminton .yeah

out of sports but still . hahahaha!

and best of all

we are joining the kpop dance battle thingy with other ppl age 15!!! hehehe^^

yes uh !!! LOVE IT!!!

kkk..

gtg~

bye!

sorry sorry sorry sorry ..

2010-08-14T18:51:00.000-07:00

OMG PEOPLE THIS MAKES ME EVEN MORE EXCITED TO GO TO SUPERSHOW3!
LIKE SERIOUSLY!!! EH-EH!!!!
EVEN MY SIS WAS LIKE I WANT GO BUT IT IS A MAYBE!!!
MMMMMMMM-URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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like i want see lady hee hee , i want see orange kyu , i wan see

Omg lady hee hee is hilarious . you should noe who by the name of HEE hee !! haha!

omg with heels .. eh-eh .. i want go there like today is their last concert in korea .

at 3PM S'pore timing uh . like seriously are u kidding me. need save money cos

the tickets might be selling in a nearer date . like seriously need get their merchandise ,

i need get pictures taken in real life event hough i noe 50/50 percent chance can bring

cameras but if cant then i will have to sneak it in . like seriously i will hide it

carefully... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i need see KYUHYUN!!!! MY FREAKING KYUHYUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have waited 4 YEARSSSS AND THIS IS MY CHANCE !!! HEHEHEHE

kk .. gtg update later again uh !

why do i have to fall for, another guy that make me cry for ?

2010-08-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

imagine someone like this appear infront of you
and started to smile at you for no reason ?

eh-eh . this picture . hahaha! this is like from my sis found it inside her folder.

hahaha! this nuna =.=

kk ..

hmmm ... finally the tickets are here but god must the tickets be damn plain ?

unlike those in korea which is blue in colour and nice to keep for memories T.T

haizzz.. but whatever we already had the tickets :D hehehe^^

anyway , today nothing much happened .. hahaha!

thank god today is like friday so tmr is saturday :D hehe^^

erm... planning to go lot one with sis and mom ~ !! blahlblah..

god ! today i am damn sleepy ~ hahahaha~ and today i was like in my malay

mode cos i was like speaking in good malay to Darina and Yanie .

ahahaha! LOL right?

kkk.. gtg~

byee~~

Why must you do this

2010-08-10T08:09:00.000-07:00

i'm giving up on you .

i cant stand your freaking status .

One time you are with her , and the other your with another her..

Like are u freaking kidding me ?

you hurt me twice already without you even knowing it .

the pain was silent yet painful.

it is funny how someone could forget one's love in a short time right?

so i am trying to give up on you . maybe i already did but my feelings

are still there. but not any longer . the sight of you just hurts me moreover knowing

you are with someone that i hate .

i shouldnt care anymore about you . i never ever exist in your world ,

i am just a stranger and forever you will never know me .

and i will just pretend that i have never EVER met you in my life.

baby , let me love ya , love ya..

2010-08-09T07:05:00.000-07:00

Love the pic alot :D like seriously , it just makes me smile :D
everyone doing different thing . hehehe^^

Current mood : Tired and moodless...

Current song : Moonlover by some korean singer (sis listening to it uh)

anyway wad did i do today ?
Went Lot One .
blahblah .. hahaha!
then studied .
Then went and play , with Yanie and Darina .
hehs .
like look at the retarded and idiotic video at FACEBOOK :D
hehehe^^ me and Darina was like screaming / shouting :
YANIE! YANIE!!! hahahhaha (:
like i was like going to vomit and Darina wanted to die.
hahahaha!
omg epic video :D hehehe^^
Yaniegave us an evil laugh . like seriously smirking all the way
while me and Darina like gonna drop dead soon .
then afterwards , nisa headed off first , den walkwalkwalk .
hehehe^^ took pictures ... <3>and there is OMG situation . hehes ... kkk ...

kkk ... gtg :D hahahaha~!!

oh yeah , btw , i have recently updated my fanfics. about 2 of them . haha
if i were given a chance,
i would want to tell him i once love him ..

Because of you

2010-08-08T08:53:00.001-07:00

Tell me Why Why Why ...

Current mood : Pissed and confused .
Current song : nobody (rainstone remix)
Current doing : browsing facebook and chatting with Darina :D

Haizz...
tomorrow study group and i think after tomorrow i wont be using
the computer till thursday :D
hehehe^^
yeap i think i want take a break and concentrate on my studies more
.
i cant fail this.
i cant let myself fall .
i need to work hard. !
i can do ! fighting!
tomorrow i will freaking study like mad until
i will fully understand the questions :D
ehehe^^
and pissed with the people who could get the freaking sides seats.
why why why why ....
will know the answer why tomorrow by prooflabel.

hope the tickets arrive tomorrow too :D
hehehe^^

gd night dearys~